Jules and June

Ive finally hit a wall on my life where I can't even look at myself in the mirror without frowning. I always want to listen to people when they say gover yourself grace but I can't just give myself grace I needed to do something drastic for myself. So here I am 26 months and 2 babies later and I'm at the heaviest I've been not pregnant ever. One day hopefully I'll have the confidence to say this is how much I weigh but I'm not there yet. But I can say that with my first I gained 70 lbs while pregnant and lost an astonishing 30lbs the day I gave birth. When only left me 40lbs to lose but unfortunately baby blues had be gain back some of that lost weight and so after sometime of trying to get my mental back on track I lost 50lbs and was only 15 away from my pre pregnancy weight and bam. I was pregnant again. I luckily only gained 45 with my second but it was like I didn't lose a pound giving birth to him. I maybe lost 10 lbs after he was born and now I'm 4...

Every night my daughter asks for warm milk at bed and when my husband brings it in she always says it's too hot, so he adds an ice cube and brings it back. Tonight he didn't even hand it to her and she said "it's hot" and so he tells her he already added the ice cube but she refused to take it until he left the room and came back with it. 🤣🤣

Day 5: Sprinkles used our potty! He is trying to show us how easy it is to use the potty instead of our diaper! Day 6: Sprinkles had all our bed stuff ready since bedtime has been difficult for us lately! Day 7: Sprinkles went zip lining though the living room! Day 8: Sprinkles wants to join us for baking

I'm behind but here is our first 4 days of having Sprinkles back! Day 1: Sprinkles brought us some advent calendars to give us 24 days of bluey!  Day 2: He took a ride with Cinderella on our horses and asked us to give the horses some snacks after. Day 3: He used our kitchen to make himself a BLT! Day 4: He brought June her own dress up rack so she can get her dresses down independently! 

Why is naming a child so difficult. I mean there are so many things to think about. First you have to have a first name that doesn't clash with your last name, then you have to pick a middle name as well. The first name shouldn't clash to hard with your other kids names. But most importantly your child's name isn't just the name they have when they are a newborn, it's for when they are 5, 14, 23, 45, 80. It's forever. Literally you are naming someone for the rest of their lives and you don't want them to hate it or have to change it. So here I am 7 weeks till I'm due and I have no names picked out. Hopefully I will get one soon.

Today is the first time I've blogged in a very long time. I loved doing it but since no one really reads my blog I stopped really posting but it really helped me during a hard point in my life when I was suffering from post partum. Now here I am pregnant again feeling like I need something for myself. I'm already a few days shy of 31 weeks. Time has really flown this pregnancy. Having a toddler while pregnant is so unbelievably different. You have way less time to rest or eat which makes a lot of the other normal pregnancy symptoms more exaggerated.  I'm having a boy this go around! Which is scary and exciting. I mean I always wanted a boy but now that I've had a girl I'm nervous for all the things that will be different. So here's to being a mommy to 2 under 2! (At least for a month or so)